Sticking with it.

I’m having a very difficult time lately with the fact that I’m gaining weight instead of losing. However, I haven’t been talking about or reading about weight loss and I hadn’t been to my Weight Watchers meetings in a few weeks so I was sliding. I need this journal and I need inspiration from others so here I am again trying to pick up and move on. I’ve kept track of my food everyday this week which is great. I got up to walk Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday, but accidentally slept in this morning. Tonight I’m fighting off a really bad sinus headache so hopefully, I’m all better in the morning and ready to get out there and walk.

Food today:
McDonald’s breakfast (I have got to get out of this habit!)
Turkey meatloaf and cous cous leftovers
6″ Subway Chicken Teriyaki sandwich w/ Baked Lays Chips
Snacks of banana and cheerios snack mix

Up 4.2 pounds

Okay…so I’m having a rough couple weeks and now I’m up 4.2 pounds. I really think I have to be retaining water due to the 100+ temperatures we’re experiencing in FL right now. I started this morning tracking my food again.

Father’s Day

So tomorrow I have to weigh in and I’m scared. Last week was a really rough week for us and I didn’t track what I ate at all. I will post about how the weigh in comes in after Weight Watchers tomorrow. Keep me in your thoughts as I’m terrified to get on that scale.

Not great at this yet.

Okay, so I’m not great at this blogging thing yet. I am going to try to do better as I have the summer off from work and maybe I can really get into this.

I am currently in Philadelphia for a conference. I get to go home today and I’m excited because Philly is not my favorite place. Don’t get me wrong it’s nice to see different places, but this just isn’t my favorite.

I’ve been doing fairly well with my eating. Instead of a Philly Cheese for lunch on Wednesday, I had a turkey cheese. Last night, my husband and I shared a salad, hummus plate and fish for dinner. I have had one cookie each day, but that’s been my one bad thing so I’m proud of me. I got in over 19,000 steps on Wednesday which I thought was pretty good.

Inspiration

Lately, I’ve been doing a lot of refocusing.  In that process, I have used some inspirational quotes to help me through.  I’ve listed some of my favorites below.
“Do what you should do, when you should do it, whether you feel like it or not.” – Thomas Huxley

This quote has really helped me the past two weeks as I have gone from only walking once or maybe twice a week to walking every day and pushing myself.  I’ve been so glad that I’ve done it after the fact.  At night when I don’t feel like walking because it’s been such a long day, I think about this quote and know that it’s what I should do so I go ahead and press on.  Last week, I walked 52,400 steps which is approximately a full marathon.  I was so proud of myself.

AND

“The brick walls are not there to keep us out; the brick walls are there to give us a chance to show how badly we want something.” -Randy Pausch

This quote is now a favorite of mine because for so long I’ve said I wanted to lose weight, but haven’t gotten there yet.  It’s a brick wall I’m standing behind and I have to think about the fact that it’s just a chance to show how badly I really want it instead of thinking of it as an uncrossable barrier. I want to show people I can do this.

Aflac IronGirl & 20,000 Steps

Sorry I haven’t posted in awhile.  Life has just been crazy and I admit I’ve let it take me for a loop.  However….

Yesterday, I had a great day!  I completed my first 5K in quite awhile.  I did the Aflac IronGirl 5K in Clearwater, FL and then saw that I was at about 6,000 steps on my pedometer.   I got excited because I have been tracking my steps for quite awhile now and my steps normally are about 2-4,000 a day.  7,000 on a really good day.  I’m doing this program called Virgin HealthMiles for work where I can earn money for my steps throughout the year.  If I got to 20,000, I would earn an extra 300 points for my program.  I knew this was my chance so my husband and I took off for Orlando and walked IKEA and then Downtown Disney and then came home and walked the neighborhood.  Never have I walked so much and my sciatica was acting up a little this morning, but not bad!  I am so proud of myself.  This has given me renewed confidence.  Yeah ME!

Stuck at home

So, I’ve gotten a really bad stomach bug that just didn’t want to go away.  Went to the doctor yesterday after having this thing since Saturday and she tells me that I’m really contagious.  Hoping my husband doesn’t get it too.  Now I’m stuck at home until it gets through my system.  I did go to the gym on Monday morning to walk – didn’t know I was contagious.  It felt good to get in some exercise.  I might try to walk tonight since the doctor said my antibiotic should have taken effect by then.

I have a sister who is considering lap band procedure because she doesn’t think she can lose weight naturally because of how large she is.  Does anyone have any blogs they read or books they have read about women who are well over 300 pounds.  I want her to see that she can do this!

Happy St. Patty’s Day!

Happy St. Patrick’s Day everyone!  It’s been awhile since I last posted.  I’ve had a few weeks of feeling frumpy.  Time to move on.  I’ve thought about posting and then thought no, I didn’t do anything good today….however, I’m posting anyways to say I’ve not been doing well.  I intend to start anew tomorrow morning.

As Chubby Chick posted in her “Keepin It Real” entry, honesty is the best policy and I needed to get it out.  Sometimes it just feels frustrating admitting you’ve messed up yet again.  Well, I have.  I’m not giving up though.  I’ll figure it out and I’ll come through in the end.

Tomorrow’s plan is to start out with breakfast at home at 6AM instead of McDonald’s drive thru.  Then to eat a snack of yogurt and cereal at about 9AM at work.  Lunch at noon – soup and cheez-it crackers.  Afternoon snack of popcorn at 2PM and then dinner at home about 7PM.  I am going to walk the dog tomorrow evening and then do my new Biggest Loser Yoga Video.

I’ll let you know how I handle the day.

Sold the Road Bike

Okay so I’ve been in a little funk and yesterday, I broke down after selling my road bike.  I listed it on Craig’s List since I have not been able to ride it due to the stupid sciatic injury.  I have ridden a whole 28 miles in the 2 years I’ve had it.  That was $1200 sitting in the garage.  I just couldn’t see letting it sit there when someone else could use it.

I felt really great about who we sold it to.  It was to a family that is very involved in triathlons and cycling, running events.  Their oldest daughter was in need of a road bike and they bought it for her.  I couldn’t have felt better about it.

However, on the way home I got very emotional about how I felt like selling the bike was like giving up.  I can’t run anymore, I can’t ride my road bike and I can’t do my triathlons.  God, I am whiny tonight or what….

I’ve been trying to be more positive and tell myself that I just have to start again with my activity and learn how to do things that won’t hurt my back.  There are things I can do – walking, swimming and some cycling on my comfort bike.  I did 16 miles on Valentine’s Day.  I can also continue to lose weight and maybe be able to pick up some of the harder forms of activity once I am a smaller size.

Fighting each Round

Tonight as I watched Biggest Loser, they had Sugar Ray Leonard as a guest star.  He led them through a boxing workout.  At the end, he talked about how each of the people losing weight are fighters.  He also gave them his motto – POWER (Prepare Overcome Win Every Round).  I thought about this in terms of my personal weight loss.  There are times when I am really proud of how I’m doing and then others when I just don’t see how I could keep going on.  Never having been in a physical fight, I don’t know that it’s the same, but I can see how it could be similar.

I liked the prepare and overcome part of Leonard’s motto, but I think sometimes we don’t win every round in weight loss, but coming through in the end is what makes us winners – finding the key to staying with this for good.  Not just winning for today, winning for forever.  This is my goal.  I may not win every round, but I’ll fight every round to come out on top!